ugh, okay, attempt #2 at actually keeping a blog (which is apparently hard for me now.)

So I've been slacking on the blog (and a little bit the diet) because I painted an entire apartment and then moved there, which always makes everything in my entire life hard. it's good though, because now I won't be living with my brother and jessica, which is sad, but means I get to live alone (yay) and can cook and do things just for myself again. which will make everything easier.

So, I'm back strictly on the diet this week after having a ridiculous week of badly cheating (I'm looking at you pizza.) and generally being upset with myself.

so for breakfast (which I'm still struggling with, as I hate breakfast on weekdays) I'm trying something new in sort of a... low carb version of huevos rancheros.

I partially poach 2 eggs (I may start adding an extra glug of eggwhite here, as I'm having trouble reaching 20/30g of protein in breakfast still. because it's gross.) in the bottom of a small mason jar at nighttime. leave a little soggy.

then in the morning, throw in a generous tsp of refried beans, a generous portion of black beans, and microwave for a minute or 2 until everything is hot. cut up an avacado while it's heating, and throw half of that and a couple tablespoons of salsa and a tsp of paprika (I use hungarian smoked paprika, yum!) into the mix and shake/stir it all up.  I like making food in mason jars because then this can be thrown in my bag while I finish getting ready and then I can eat it while I walk.

for coffee, which I'm also struggling with, I think I've settled with an okay compromise as long as I can still latte the shit out of my life on saturdays. for day to day, I don't mind a sweet-flavour coffee (I'm currently using van houtte chocolate rasperry truffle coffee in my keurig) because I think it tricks my mind into thinking it will be sweet, and then I glob in a generous tablespoon of coconut milk and a giant teaspoon of cinnamon. it tastes okay. it's drinkable. I don't enjoy it, but I haven't really been enjoying my double-double style coffee for that long either, so hopefully I'll adjust, I'm not opposed to other bitter foods.

for lunch I'm usually out so this is still varying. meat and vegetables. no bread and cheese, which limits lunch, but this is pretty reasonable to stick to. I'm thinking I might get a dehydrator and start making sugar free jerky at home. it's perfectly easy to do, I've done it in the oven before and it turned out alright, but in the dehydrator it'd be better. I do like snacking, and I think that jerky and seaweed/kale chips might be acceptable to me.

dinner is fine, I have lots of stuff to do for that, I'll remember to start writing down recipes as I go along to share, but really. other than all the cheating this week (which I know is avoidable, but would have made my week a LOT harder, so I decided to vice out instead) things will be fine.

in other goals things are going well but stalled. I have a dishwasher now, that should help with the keeping the house clean front, and once I get everything unpacked my place should be pretty nice.I also wore heels three times this week, and have blisters to show for it, but feel like I'm walking better.

so yeah. maybe I'll report back with a dinner recipe.